christmastime

as you can see, I’m not very good at blogging.  hell, I usually even fail at twitter.  I try, and fail miserably, but, I’m giving it another go.

 

So here I am, on Christmas eve.  Why am I even starting blogging over on Christmas eve?  This year, unfortunately, I am spending Christmas alone.  I never thought it would be so lonely, but it is.  It’s not the holiday itself that is lonely, but seeing everyone with people they love, and being by myself and going home to no one that is.  This is life as an adult I suppose, when you’re continents away from family.  Hopefully though, this will be a new start in terms of blogging.  We’ll see, I guess.

still one of my favourite photographs

Zena Holloway Photography, from Google Images

honestly

Honestly, it’s days like these, with the sun shining bright, and everyone out on the streets soaking in the first rays after these past frigid winter months, where I feel the loneliest.  It may only be 45 degrees out, but it’s beautiful with the sun.  However, sitting alone in the city, job-searching, I can’t help but feel as if there’s something missing.  Something cold, that not even the sun can warm up.

 

Then again, maybe it’s my itunes continuously playing depressing music that’s making me feel this way.

fragility, impermanence, transience

photo from Google Images

Another earthquake hitting northern Japan.  It only serves to remind us how delicate the cycle of life really is.  Nothing is permanent, and we only exist to leave temporary footsteps in this world.  With time, everything will be one day be forgotten.  And with time, it will heal all.  Like cherry blossoms, we are fragile, impermanent and transient; beautiful, but for a short time only.  During these trials and tribulations Japan, stay strong, we all stand with you.

personal statements

It’s hard enough for me to even be completely honest with myself.  Baring myself to strangers who are there to judge me is even harder.  Maybe that’s why my personal statement is so hard, yet easy to write.  In a way, it’s cathartic to expose parts of myself that still, not everyone knows about me to those I don’t know, to those I may never meet.  At the same time, it’s incredibly difficult to face myself and some of my deepest fears and put them into writing.  Not just any type of writing, but in a way to sell myself.  How can I make some of my greatest insecurities into my biggest selling point?  Oh, the ironies.

 

But what happens will happen.  Life happens for a reason, and all we can do is try our hardest, and breathe.  Just breathe.

sitting in my starbucks

I call it my starbucks because it is the one place I have felt most productive and most comfortable in when studying for the LSATs, applying for jobs, and now, applying for law school.

Perhaps it’s just silly for me to believe it because, who knows? There may be another place out there in the city I currently live in that is even better for me. But, I’m a stubborn child, and I refuse to give up going to this particular starbucks. I won’t tell you where it is in case someone decides to stalk me, or in case someone decides to take over and make it their starbucks. In fact, I actually didn’t let me roommate start coming to this starbucks with me to study purely because, I didn’t want here there to distract me.

Maybe I’m just a huge bitch, but hey, you gotta do what you’ve gotta do. The only thing I can hope for, for all of you, is that you’ll be able to find your spot. The spot that you can make your own and be able to become as productive as I have. This starbucks will always have a special place in my heart, and for me, no other starbucks out there makes drinks or food as good as they do.

from there to here

Welcome to je m’appelle francois, I have recently moved from  my previous blog misoshiru to here.  I felt that I needed a sense of uniformity due to tumblr and twitter.  Please feel free to check either of them out if you feel the need to.  I am definitely not the best or the most consistent of bloggers as I do tend to forget and neglect all forms of blogging.  However, I will attempt to be better at it.  And so, I commence my first post to my new site.